I hate when people make remark about how thin I am
And when I complain about eating ice creme they tell me how they once had a few more years on them
These love handles can just as easily illustrate pictures of the playground you cried on
Fog your bathroom mirror like get thin cigarettes draining the color left inside you
I sometimes wish I were thinner
A size 4 isn't good enough when everyone assumes your a size 1
Sometimes I'm afraid to capture a portrait of myself
Afraid that the imperfections I have invested mile runs and sprints into will move to my neck
Beauty is defined by our bodies
I even run to feel beautiful
My Sahara toned skin will never be perfect
I'm a Black woman with a limited amount of shorts
Shaped out by my measurements
A Black woman isn't suppose to be this thin
My rear end is suppose to be the first thing you see
Its hard to distinguish the times we have faced forward
Many are still bowling with our chest
The box springs of the ring are pushing us back and forth like windshield wipers
My black isn't thin enough
My Black isn't curvy enough
My Black isn't fat enough
My Black isn't woman
I don't know what shape I'm suppose to be
There are no geometric symbols to identify my swaying branches
The whole in my trunk
And the names carved into my age
There are only mainstream hip hop lyrics
Music videos
And reality t.v
I liked it better when our breast hung forward like treasure chest
Cradling pain and pleasure
When we laid backwards on grass to follow the sun
When we were sculpted with natural materials
Not steel instruments
Our margins are so thin brothers can't leave their stories with their thumbs